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Hm it looks like I haven't been updating this journal. I've been busy and I don't have that much time on the internet. I'm surprised to find all these comments on my journal for posting access to a community and for a minute there I thought, what in the world are they talking about?? Then it hit me, I forgot I'm co-owner and moderator of lost_in_shadows. Well, it looks like I took care of that.

Anna's been acting some what aloof, distant and quite not herself. I know Anna. I've been friends with her since she was 5. I've known her since she was 3. It troubles me to see her that way. I know she's going through a lot. I know that life hasn't really been treating her well. But despite all that, she still manages to smile, she still show kindness and gracefullness. It's rare for people to be that way. Deep down I know she's hurting and I wish that there was something I can do for her.

She'd call me late at night and she says she just wants to talk. But then she'd get real quiet and I can tell she's crying. It's pointless to ask what's wrong, I know her, she'll just say that there's nothing wrong. But then, when she's ready to talk, she'll talk about whatever it is that's troubling her.

Looks like work's getting to her. I know what that's like. My boss is an asshole and I can't stand him. The other workers I work with are nothing but jackasses. I need to remind Anna that business is business. She's there to work. If she makes a few friends along the way, that's fine too, but she really needs to focus on what's important and her friends should cut her some slack.

I don't know the situation or what's going on. But that night she called me and she was talking about Jared and she said that he yelled at her saying "what the heck's going on Anna?" Then he and his roommate started ganging up on her. Anna hates confrontations. I hope she handled it well. Brotherly instincts of being overprotective started to kick in when I heard about what happened. From the phone call I got from her, it looks like she didn't take it well. That's not right. Then again, I really don't know what happened and what's going on and what prompted such a thing. I read what she posted.

I know that she doesn't want people to feel sorry for her. She likes to come off as independent and she hates having to rely on others. My opinion? She's like a sister that I never had and always hope to have. I appreciate her and as far as I'm concerned, she is and always will be family to me.

I just wish there's something I can do for her.

As for everything else. Work is ok. I finally have full custody of my son. My mom takes care of him. I might consider dating again. I just have to find the time. Valentine's day is coming up. That'll suck ass.